It's Benn Awhile...

5 months to be exact! WOW! I don't think I even know where to start. And most would be me ranting so I'm not gonna try! LOL! Christmas was OK. Low key, but just didn't feel like the holidays. I swear I have the worlds worst family. I talk to my mom, but other then that no one calls me. My grandmother has always treated me different, then why my cousin had her baby I seen how she was with Logan, just like she was with me so I haven't talked to her on a regular basis in like 5 years. Then my aunt and uncle are God sent, they do nothing wrong yet both have. My aunt, well she's just trash, my uncle never did right by my grandparents. And then of course the sperm donor hasn't had nothing to do with me since birth and neither has his family. I talk to my one Aunt on his side, but I really think I have talked to her more then my sperm donor. Yes, I have a issue calling him a father since clearly he's never been one! LOL Then I think about Logan and him not having no family as he grows up and it kinda makes me sad. I mean after Bill and I are gone, honestly he will have no one. And I had a older friend at my old work who I got the talking to about that and seen how upset she was about it. Makes ya really think and put things into perspective. Aside from my real family, my bestfreind is really like my sister. And my second bestfriend I have know her and her family since high school and I always feel right at home with them. I have seen both of their families more then I have my own! Hell, I don't even get invited when they do have family gatherings! LOL But ok, I'm ranting...So next year, I'm staying home, having a open house. If people come good, but if they don't, that's fine with me too. That way we can invite our close friends too!

Logan's doing OK in school. Having issue's with spelling but other then that, it's good. He's in chess, band, chorus, and the K Kids. He just loves school. Hope it stays that way once he goes tot he middle school next year. How scary. FOR ME! LOL

Talking about Logan, he's currently home. Sick with double ear infections. The ones is really bad the doctor said. And last night was so bad. The worse since he was like 4 years old. So they gave him pain medicine also. So I'm keeping him home tomorrow also just to be on the safe side.

NASCAR comes back on next month. I so can't wait to have something to look forward to each week. I'm so wanting to have a Daytona Party but wouldn't know who to invite since no one I know likes NASCAR! Sigh, wish my friend April from online lived closer! I think we would have a good time :)

As for me, I'm doing good. Off all my meds and as of October I'm cancer free! I'm feeling a little better but still don't have my energy back that I used to have. And really hope it comes back soon.

I have taken some cute pictures over the last month that I wanted to share. Some of Logan of course. We had a big snow storm so I got a couple cute ones of him near the old train station in the snow! Then some of my friend's lil girl who is just totally adorable!

NASCAR, Health, and Logan updates...

OK Kasey made it into the chase, so excited! This year we got 8 out of 12 in the chase that we like. AND KYLE BUSCH DIDN'T MAKE IT!!! Love it :) The first race Kasey blew up, so ticked!

This weekend is DOVER! And I'm so excited to go, just hope I feel better! We are making some signs this time around and here it out first...hahaha Do you like it? We got ticket's for Friday too! I am going to be SO tired come Monday!

I'm on my LAST round of chemo pills, they increased it too so it's pretty much kicking my butt. Most days I haven't gotten out of bed til 12ish, but it's be nice being able to stay home and relax while being sick. I'll have off for a month (October) then 4 rounds of radiation (2 times a week for 2 weeks) and then, if everything goes as planned, I will be DONE! A year and two months later!



Logan is doing good in school. Love his teacher Mrs. Pratt, seems to be on top of things like Mrs. Miller & Mrs. Robson! And I'm happy about that. He also scored really well on the Maryland State Testing, so good he got a letter about doing the Talentant Youth Program! SO EXCITED and HAPPY!